This is deliberately written in an ambiguous way. No one is named who I am referring to. Because I know people won't change. I know these words will be relevant again and again in coming years. Being autistic means you don't always follow the crowd just because the crowd says so, if we don't understand why the crowd does A we do B and don't worry about being the odd one out. We also focus on small details rather than the big picture. Which means I look at things different to neurotypical people. You may read this and think "but still they did this and need to pay for it" the big picture. My points and feelings around it are small details I have noticed that have significance.
So I say it below and I will say it again I do not agree with what this person did. I do not think we should forgive and forget. I know it was wrong. I just want to share the thoughts from the way my autistic brain sees what's happening now.
Imagine the worst thing you've ever done.
Imagine you're biggest mistake.
We all make them we are all human.
Imagine that thing you've never told anyone or possibly told a couple of people ever.
Now imagine when you tell those people suddenly the whole world knows.
The whole world has an opinion on what you've done.
People you thought were true friends publicly display their hate for you because they don't want to associate with you anymore and would rather save their own skin.
The mistake you made years ago has meant you've lost your job and will never work again in the industry you love.
I've just read an interview that brought me close to tears.
Autistic people unfortunately have far far too much empathy it hurts.
In no way do I agree with what he has done.
But he has seriously hurt enough.
The "blackness and sadness and regret and remorse and guilt", you feel when you make a mistake is nothing compared to this. Your biggest mistake isn't all over the news every day with everyone on the planet having an opinion.
When a celebrity publicly asks "do you want me to die?". It's time for us to call it, enough is enough.
Have we learnt nothing from past mistakes?
No one deserves this.
Suicide is real.
Those unrelenting feelings of being a horrible person that everyone hates and would prefer to be dead are real.
Enough now. Leave this human alone.
Or the same people that pour out hate today will be tomorrow saying how much they loved him and didn't want him to commit suicide.
He needs to hear that today.
When he is telling the world that is where he is at.
He is at the end of what he can survive.
Everyone that commented and spoke words against this person will have contributed to his death if the worst should happen.
Again I will ask, have we learnt nothing.
We are all only human.
