"You're not in crisis this is normal now"

I was assessed yesterday for being in a mental health crisis. I have felt in crisis since end of January. All the symptoms and signs that for me mean crisis have been present every day since January. I haven't had one good day since then. When beingnassessed today I asked for some support from the Home Treatment Team (crisis team) because this is not normal for it to go on this long and I need help to get back to my normal to have a hope of helping myself. The help and support I'm currently getting clearly isn't working and something need to change to help me get better. 

I was told I'm not in crisis because it wouldn't last this long. This is just normal for me now. So they are just going to get my care coordinator to phone me on Monday and keep things the same. The care coordinator who has been in charge of my care all this time and literally says to me there is nothing she can do to help me. 

To be told I'm not in crisis do you have any idea how much those words hurt? I'm at rock bottom and in deep despite everyday and can't see a way out. If this is normal, if this is my life now I just 100% don't want it. How can someone tell me I'm not in crisis? How can they invalidate me so much to say that? These words make me feel completely hopeless that things will ever get better. What about freedom of speech and the right to have an opinion. If I feel I am in crisis, that should be respected, that's how I feel, I'm allowed to use the words I feel most appropriate to describe my distress. I didn't know you were actually inside my head and could know these things better than I can.

I was also asked in this assessment "when are you going to take responsibility and help yourself?" You have no idea how hard I try every day. You have no idea how much I battle in my own head every damn day. How dare you say that. If I was capable of just getting myself out of this, clearly I would have done it by now.  This pain I feel everyday is torture, relentless never ending torture, clearly if I could I would. Then they went on about meeting them in the middle which is what I always do a bit of both them helping me to help myself. Yet still I'm left with the worst ever care coordinator and nothing else.  

I'm exhausted.